Early Life

2010-02-19T22:17:00.000-08:00

Omg. Pls don't say it as though you are the most wei da person on earth and always considering for others first. That's not true and I think you know it. In fact it was amusing when I saw it and the whole thing sounds as if I started all this crap. I am glad things are over between us as friends and I hope you recognize this fact.

2010-01-26T01:43:00.000-08:00

Making an effort to find out is always the first step to new acceptance in life..
sometimes, we experience things that cannot be understood and there stands an opportunity of finding out why and the other choice of standing by and waiting for things to happen..
thats been something I keep telling myself for the past few days..
does that mean the person doesnt care alot if the person never plans to find out?
well, i just have to presume so.
been feeling quite down this few days when i am alone, feel as though I am not that important to do things that i am supposed to do but somehow i just dont feel like telling anyone about it..
waking up, starting up, going home, doing homework, is just back to the normal routine whereby i feel so fed up with life alongside with other people making me feel worse. disappointment, anguish and sadness somehow just fills me up this days..
I couldnt say i felt nothing but I still feel anger and bu ping over things that shouldnt be done as a friend. I guess I am the sensitive one because i bother alot about this kind of things.
Feel like making everything go back the way it was.
But I wont, because its unfair to other people and I wonder when will you ever for once try to gain something back that's lost. I guess I will probably wait for a long while because it was probably never cherished in the first place.
emoish post. and i am feeling emoish though.
forget it.
off to homework again.

2010-01-01T06:19:00.000-08:00

long time since i blogged.. lols.. looks like i begin every post with the same phrase.. hahas.. its kind of stereotypical.. hahas.. being hooked on using the word " stereotypical".. hahas..
recently i went to watch ci ling on 31st dec on its first release day and seriously it was a severe letdown... I expected more from my zhou jie lun but seriously the movie turned out bad and the only two phrases I could manage after watching the show was " wa lau" lols.. and "it sucks".. hahas.. may sound kind of ironical, the highest earning celebrity acting in a show that totally sucks but i dare not lie to my readers because it seriously is terrible..
hahas...
I read the critics about it which graded the movie an average of a single star.. intially, i just shooed off any negative comments about the show BEFORE watching it.. but AFTER watching it.. i just felt cheated of my money. LOLS
well. what was bad about it in actual? the plot of the show was totally a let down and the stale plot of the magnificent and long lost treasure cove always threatens to collapse everytime some "mischievious" fellow or a greedy looking fei lou tries to bring home some gold to make fast cash... =.= and the minute i saw the cave threatening to collapse or was in the midst of falling like bread, crumbs all over the place...prior to that, i noticed that some scenes were kind of EXTRAordinary and made no sense because there was one particular scene whereby zhou jielun was fighting heroically with the so called " dont know what lao da" and one moment he was on the ground and the next he was on the horse of the lao da=.=.. my sis even noticed it. LOLS. which meant it was pretty obvious. LOLS
hmm.. putting aside the illogical scenes plus the stereotypical endings of treasurehunter shows.. We were even making a joke out of it saying that the western peeps like nicholas cage who might happen to chance upon the show would laugh till his teeth dropped out about the amateurish fighting graphics plus the so called complications of the typical treasure hunter show..
Next on, I felt the MOST pissed off when the relationship between zhou jielun and ling zhi ling in the show was so savagely brought to an end whereby there were only few phrases like " wo men shi bu tong shi jie de ren", well, for the non chinese it meant " we are people from different worlds" =.= I was like seriously -,-. ok and the show just ended with the heroic and dashing looking zhou jie lun riding off in a motorbike into the desolate desert with no apparent aims in his mind and only flashbacks of the lovely ling zhi ling talking to him. gosh. the relationship between them was a total let down and the preferential and more meaningful ending would have been zhou jie lun being less zhuai in his character and finally he understood that ling zhiling was the person for him =.= wouldnt that be a more meaningful ending instead of showing us scenes of the entirely attractive desert that I am sure everyone would definitely wanna chance upon.. =.=
I am sure one thing the critics reflected most accurately was that there was a guy having a super irritating role whereby he would laugh for nothing and make illogical and entirely de-appetizing statements that often spoilt the climax of the show instead of boosting the comical effect of the script.
well,, enough of the show critics,
I went to the kbox at jurong safra today.. apparently, it is real good with the latest touch screen devices and i was amazed by its ability to record the songs in which yoy sang and send it over to your phone for a some sort souvenir.. it's real cool and refreshing what technology can actually do.. hahas.. :) I had a fun time singing with my family though although i was a little irked out by the aircon that was chilling me to my bones..
hmm.. its been a long day!
11 days more to school. =,= gosh
and worse ghastly PE. running in the blazing hot sun
for 6 rounds :(
nighty

2009-12-29T01:51:00.000-08:00

looking at my previous post reminds me of the same thing i did a long long time ago.. but i regretted the moment i posted it because it cause so much hurt that it was irreparable.. At the verge of anger, irritation? I sometimes whether is it wrong for others to say what they are truly thinking in that spurt of the moment.. But i guessed it was the only choice i had... Hahas.. But i guess because of that, i also caused irreversible impacts on others. The concern and care seems kind of foreign now.. well.. Wasnt it what i wanted

2009-12-13T20:24:00.000-08:00

I guess its time I clarified things up.
I think I kind of mixed up stuff and thought it was a form of liking. I guess I am mistaken because right now i seriously dont feel any form of liking anymore. I just wanna things to remain the same they were during the time of orientation and dont really wanna to be plagued by such lame stuff. just like my blog's url. it means living anew. I guess you should try to stop harping on such stuff again and again. I finally felt it was time to tell you I mixed up. It wasnt liking we are just friends. always. and there's no point waiting because the real person I am waiting for is not you.
Making decisions whether or not it would turn out right was just a normal decision me as a friend would advise you to take as it was a better alternative than spending your time in the school for more years than others would expect to be. As a friend, I would feel sad for that loss of companionship and thats all. I am tired of ai mei stuff which not only gets on my nerves but also makes me feel childish why i am indulging in such lame stuff. I regret the wrong feeling I protrayed but that seems to be the end of the ai mei stuff and i suddenly realized how eager i am to get into the pharmacy faculty. I just sort of thought the whole thing would get crazy if you didnt realized that at this point of time already i dont feel the same and I just want to for the first time take full charge of my life and studies, achieving the grades i should have and not be contented with the self-satisfactory ones now.
Friends. studies. I guess i wont give up neither just like a person i know of did but I will rather the status remain quo.
I hope this settle things because maturity no matter how you say always remains a barrier between the communication we have. childish words may be forgiven. But childish, insensitive and stupid words and actions sometimes just cant become part of my life. We are still though the friends that we were a year ago.

2009-12-13T05:05:00.000-08:00

lols-- suddeenly feel quite irritated as iremember how people keep assking me to shut up and its seriously so irritating because you can shut up for all i care but quit asking people to shut up just bbecause you are quieter..it seriously gets on my nerves

2009-12-11T15:39:00.000-08:00

I think I dont because we are just friends nothing more.

3rd dec outing

2009-12-07T20:46:00.000-08:00

poof.. long time since i blogged now.. erm or rather it was a week ago?
hahas.. i realized my life is really darn boring as compared to a blog i read about india overseas trips and sydney trips.. hahas..
well one thing worth mentioning was the karaoke session we had on 3rd dec which nobody posted about it other than Christina and me now though.. hmm.. it was quite fun though.. we started off by eating at Breeks which was kind of hua suan to me because i found the chicken soup particularly nice as compared to the usual soups i had at pizza hut which was utterly disgusting especially the tomato soup which tasted as though they put the spaghetti sauce and diluted it... hahas.. yihao woonyeow, me and keith did have the "time of our lives" drinking the soup that particular day though. hmm.. afterwhich we went to sing at kbox though..hahas..:) having the special tapas meal which kind of disppointed yihao because he thought we were going to be served free flow drinks and a shark fin's bowl which was only available at the chinatown $10 club.. hahas..:) well the session was kind of similar to the one at my house previously with emelynn, woonyeow , me and yihao but this time there were probably more songs available and a better sound system obviously though the mic kept squeaking alot. hahas..
I uploaded like ALL the pictures in facebook le so you all might wanna see :) hahas...
well counting down to my holiday : 8 days more :) hahas..
I am going to watch New Moon tml and buy my holiday stuff tml though!
hahas.. the following day joyce and co will be coming over for a mahjong session which seriously has been rescheduled and rescheduled again and again due to unforseen circumstances.. hahas.. :) so i wouldnt really have time to blog this few days! hahas..:)

2009-12-01T17:28:00.000-08:00

lols.. i wanted badly to continue my post on the H1 jab i took which i guessed no one would really wanna hear about it. LOLS. but i will just say because it was such a horrifying experience though. the doctor i went to kept concentrating on making jokes to create some form of humour within the room that i simply doubted whether he was even concentrating on the injection itself. Well, he was like putting that alcohol swab on me and i started to shiver and had a strong urge to burst out of the room crying. lols.. i hate injections though, shouldnt be hard to tell. hmm.. well, however, it didnt really turn out as expected and it really wasnt that pain after all. hahas..><
My hair is like getting more orangey and more mochaish at the same time which appears to be quite ok but at the same time it kind of irks me when i see the colour being not spreaded evenly, its either all thanks to my sis professional hair dyeing skills or due to the poor quality dye which i doubt it is the latter.
I was very tired and sleepy yesterday coupled along with a minor headache that seems quite common this few days now. I completed like all my holiday assignments like last week and i had to spend the whole of this week doing some form of revision for
J1 work which Wee kiat claimed that i was being siao by doing that. -.-
ok.
lols..
i guess the only reason why I dont wanna put too much emotions into it is because i guess it will just end out the same way again. Prior confidence in fairy tale sort of "happy ever after" sort of just shattered and I dont really wanna spend time thinking about it. Perhaps its better this way now where I receive more instead of contributing "selflessly" just like before and when i look back now, just looks stupid to me. hahas.. from actions, speech, its kind of obvious you havent reached that level of maturity level desired yet thats why until now i dont see myself plunging deeply into the hole. hahas.. I guess thats the reason. Maybe a year later, things will changed. People change and i guess feelings will eventually change if they are not reciprocated because at this point in time, we always tend to have a superficial form of emotions. Till now, I never believed in the childish thinking whereby one lets go easily just because the person doesnt like you in return. However much argument made, i still believe that form of liking is therefore not the real form of liking other people but just the form of baby love which absolutely disgusts me and I absolutely feel very strongly against it. I know liking people wouldnt be that way thats why I hate that kind of mentality.
poof.enough of emo stuff.
well. I guess i am going back to do my homework... hahas.. tata then. :)

2009-11-29T05:00:00.000-08:00

hahas.. had my long awaited H1N1 jab today that was supposed to take place about 4 to 5days ago but it was rescheduled due to some prior plans. well. I did have it today after a long while of procrastination.. hahas.. probably onl;y about 30% of procrastination but 70% was fear of being jabbed because i honestly hate injections. hmm.. the doctor sort of freaked me out and i thought it was going to be excruciatingly painful as like before but honestly i didnt even noticed when he stuck the needle in my arm or even took it out. hahas.. it lasted for like around 3 seconds.. hmm.. the week's coming to an end though after such a long while.. anw i wanted to thank emelynn and woonyeow for like smsing me to give me some encouragement because i was feeling quite stressed out over homework and my studies.. honestly it meant quite a lot :)
thanks a lot guys.. jiayou to all of us in whatever we are busy and doing during this long holiday!

Fate or Fated?

2009-11-26T05:54:00.000-08:00

this few days keep on meeting weili, my old classmate from 4T1.. sounds so foreign now though 4T1.. hahas.. i realized time really does make people forget stuff or feel strange when meeting someone or even just saying something. Given the single analogy whereby a person who doesnt practise piano often will soon find piano and those white and black keys to be very foreign,strange and unfamiliar. I guess its easier to understand with the analogy.. hahas...
well, weili was telling me we have fate. lols.. i was like =.='. hahas.. fate. what a weird word. I used to believe that everything was fated. Everything that happened to me was fated and was for a reason. hahas.. i stopped being so childish. I realized it wasnt. I guess fate's really in your hands. Nobody can ever predict what's your next move. What's the next thing that would happen. so i stoppedd believing the fate bullshit thing.
recently feeling quite stressed. desperately wanna a break. desperately wanna just fly off for my holiday now and my headaches are making me seriously very frustrated how weak i can get. Sometimes, i just want a shoulder to lean on, a pair of ears to listen to me and a pair of reassuring eyes to tell me that everything's gonna be fine. Everything will just come and go. However stress i may feel, eventually it will go away. I hope it is true.
been long since i went out to have fun. hahas.. i wake up everyday to homework. I just think school's at least not that depressing. i have that share of stress but that at the same time i feel so much more at ease with friends to talk to, to joke with and at least i dont have to keep burying myself in a pile of homework, worried I might never be doing enough to upgrade myself from the recent promos.
I wanna go to a beach. wanna talk to people. wanna try to live for once my own life.

2009-11-25T00:47:00.000-08:00

having a lsight headache now... i guess its the sunny and yet windy weather that sort of caused it.. or the long hours of studying? lols.. not very sure.. dont really care.. hmm.. completed about 80% of holiday assignments some of which that really cannot be done at the moment because the holiday tutorials are not released yet.. hahas.. just realized the way i am spending the holiday is probably like fifty times different than the kind of holiday everyone else is spending.. hahas.. woonyeow's busy with astar and sticking in the lab. Joyce's probably stuck with band.. hmm and the rest not very sure.. hahas.. but i was expecting to see millions of people online though during this holiday season, but to my horror, no one was online to talk to.. or rather there were but not the chatable kinds.. hahas..
i guess everyone's probably very occuppied now with loads of stuff to do.. holiday assignments.. busy going out to have fun or even just busy sleeping at home.. Time's no longer a luxury for me but something i need very badly because i have to chiong all the year's revision within this few weeks because when the term starts, there are going to be some subjects with tests. Plus practising piano is such a boredom and i really cant help it but feel so sianded by it..
haiis.. moodswings are getting worse still.. not sure caused by what in particular? or rather there are times i dont even feel like talking at all. that is seriously not an exaggeration but just a true reflection of how i feel. hmm.. taking a break now. do you call that a break? urgh. guess not. because the break's about 10 min long. sian sian sian. i wake up everyday and all i wake up to is a pile of revision plus holiday assignments which are starting to get on my nerves NOW.I guess most of the time my blog's just full of crappy and emoed stuff based on the frequency of my moodswings this days. .
at the same time, i think 3rd dec had better come fast because i am soon going to be very tired of this weary schedule where i wake up at 8 in the morning chionging homework all the day long and the only time i look forward to is at lunch because i get to watch shows during that time..
hmm..
i watched hai pai tian xin though the first two episodes... they are actually quite entertaining and funny and i was very amused by the similarities between the plot and things that happen in daily life, my daily life and school.. although i think the abusiveness and violence of the female character is kind of exaggerated.. hahas.. but overall, YOU should watch the show because its damn entertaining and you will see what a striking resemblance this is to our school life. or rather my school life.. hahas..
guess thats enough for the day.
should get going to finish maclaurin's series...
get back asasp :)bb

2009-11-23T03:03:00.000-08:00

Didnt really do much today that is probably worth mentioning on this blog here... lols.. i am sure nobody will be interested to know how much homework i completed today right.. lols..>< hahas..
felt quite tired today because i woke up at around 8 plus to do my holiday assignments.. somehow feel quite happy because i seem to be ticking them off quite quickly.. hahas..><
quite excited about the outing on 3rd Dec. Well in case you peeps still dont know.. hahas.. we are meeting at 11.45pm at Jurong East Interchange. DOUBLE CONFIRM. hahas..><
i love confirming stuff.. lols.. i was busy asking my sis though about what we would eat for lunch on 3rd. Lols.. she gave me that sian diao face and said she didnt like planning such stuffs before hand.. hahas..>< I love planning stuffs early.. lols.. i still remember everyone being very irritated with me because i keep confirming and double confirming and keep confirming where we were going to eat lunch and how many people were going for lunch. LOLs..>< feels nice to be able to decide where we are going to eat for once.. hmm... i started counting down the days to my Hokkaido trip though.. so excited about the camwhoring that we can do there :) hahas.. plus the nice sceneries and the lovely snow. I love cold weather:). ahas.. most importantly i love snow. Hhahas.. looking at my calender now, there is about approximately 3 weeks to the trip? hahas..>< sounds kind of far. but yah in the meanwhile i am still stuck with holiday assignments..
lols.. holiday's kind of lonely.. there isnt really anyone to talk to though... woonyeow's busy with Astar attachment, Joyce has band i think... no more mahjong sessions, there wasnt one to begin with, Yeerui's busy playing some corner and admiring herself.. lols.. yihao=.= not to mention probably crawling around looking for cheap stuff plus very hua suan student meals. Dawei probably busy with CO. Emelynn probably stuck with Harmoc stuff.. lols.. busy watching yulebaifenbai.. Argh. everyone seems so occupied and i cant believe my handphone has seriously NO sms, NO call except from the council peeps =.=. NO SMS????!!
i still remember being very busy with reply smses and stuff during the normal school days because woonyeow was so free and he loved smsing me crap. Not to mention, i would get occassional messages regarding interact. Maybe Joyce or emelynn at times.. HAIISS...><
cant wait for 3rd dec though.
Off to read my xiao shuo :)
tata :)

Feeling tired

2009-11-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

hahas.. finally had the time to post about stuff i wanted to post.. poof we shall start off with the most delightful news first whereby Michelle is joining us on 3rd Dec outing too!!! hahas... ><>< decided to just post it online..
Everyone will probably be wondering what on earth am i doing.. posting at 10.10pm which is about ten minutes past my bedtime and i am still furiously typing my post.. lols..>< hmm... not sure how to explain but i am seriously too overwhelmed by the good news and i cant possibly just sleep after hearing such stuff.. LOLS.. everyone should be thinking i am mad.. hahas.. i think i am though. LOLS
for the past few days didnt really do anything or feel much about stuffs but maybe on Friday I felt a little sian diao, didnt really know why but probably because it was probably the last day of school.. I mean sort of officially.. hahas..>< so yah.. Suddenly all those moments of laughter. all those times we gathered around and started laughing hysterically over the lamest things on earth, busy gossiping about people we shouldnt be gossiping over, busy discussing crazy stuffs like who was the prettiest or most irritating person in class and so on so on.. well, to be honest, I actually didnt really liked the idea of going to AJ at first, totally at all.. But after a year, i guess the things didnt really go the way i thought it would be too :).. fortunately it was in a positive way.. Other than handling the immense amounts of assignments plus new topics in JC which i sort of expected, most importantly i met people in my life that I wouldnt really wanna miss out on meeting.. Gossip partners, lunch partners, really nice people and most importantly a very good friend, well all in all, I didnt really regret the year after it passed... :) I guess the best i can do to appreciate the year that has passed by so quickly would be to write about the main activities, to reminisce about the past and appreciate the things that seemed to have come by so easily but actually they are really presents, incidental ones.. :)

hmm.. starting of the year, i was still afraid, regretful, sian diao over the fact that i was forced into AJ. Everything seemed bad to me. the facilities, the people and i even went to the point of trying not to mix with others because i seriously just detested the fact that i could have been in some other JC ten times better without having to appeal and yet i was forced somewhere i didnt like... Started off when i sat next to a guy called Woonyeow.. I was damn shocked when i saw his name on my class list because according to joyce, he was supposed to be from BP and i was sort of "amazed" at my luck of being his classmtate, whether or not it would turn out bad or terrible. LOLS. I seriously didnt know.. So off i was to start off the year with Woonyeow whom i didnt really know but i was glad to cling on to because i serioiusly didnt know anyone else.. hahas..

Orientation for me wasnt that fun.. so lets just skip that part..
lessons started and i realized how difficult JC life was actually because you had to juggle a squeezy two year syllabus with like loads of CCA duties. Meetings, meetings, tutorials, lectures, meetings, SL and tutorials again... everything seems a repeated cycle. To add on and make things worse, tests, exams promos.. hahas...
I think the best part of JC life was like after Promos, PW was a TERROR. and chinese was very irritating because we had to do like loads of assignments and perform loads of mock tests.. hahas... After promos, we seriously enjoyed alot because by then we already knew many of our classmates, their habits, their character and I found many many other people who loved gossiping like me.. gossiping's good:)
hahas... we spent a lot of time eating lunch together.. Sumo House according to Yihao the cheapo kia lols.. has the cheapest Jap food plus FREE flow DRINKS and many other free dishes.. hahas..><><
Last thursday, i think we went to Cartel's to eat with the same group of peeps, Serene , Bryan, Keith, Woonyeow, Youyue, Yihao the cheapo kia, Dawei, kenneth, victor.. lols.. sorry if i missed out any names but yah.. hahas..><><>< hahas.. if it was the other way round, i doubt i would be THAT tolerating but sometimes woonyeow is irritating too.. BUT. lols.. its ok. I am irritating too :) HAHAHAS....

actually after typing so much, i am seriously damn tired.. lols..><
guess i will stop here..
i will update ALL of you about my life :) when i have the time :) hahas..
tata
goodnight everyone!
everyone reading this should ssay" goodnight" and repeat after me.. hahas..>hahas..
see you all soon! bb

2009-11-18T02:50:00.000-08:00

Long overdue post though..
hahas.. i wanted to post this like long ago, either i couldnt find time to post or i was too tired to even switch on the comp everytime i get back from school..
hahas.. had an official interact meeting today.,. well some sort with interact teachers since the term of my office.. suddenly it felt nice to have something to do. LOLs. not that i am saying I am very free but I was in fact quite delighted for the fact that i am working for my post.
hmm.. recently, my moodswings are getting on my nerves and i am seriously very sorry towards anyone that i have shown them too.. Because for some odd reason, i feel angry and irritated like most of the time only when i start joking around then will i feel less irritated.. hmm..
I am sorry though.. it wasnt really personal or what.. hahas..
guess sorries dont help here since I have always been known for my irritation. hahaas...><
well well. I think I should get a rein of the moodswings like asap.
Today.
Nothing really happened today except that this was probably the first time in quite a long period of time since i didnt go to school and go back home with woonyeow because he had chemistry and was off to do some STUDIO recording.. according to him=.= erhem. shall not elaborate..
hahas..
it was quite boring though going alone to school and back because usually i will be chattering all the way and back assuming I was in a good mood.. hahas.. well for a change, gin accompanied me home and i felt it was quite refreshing to stop gossiping and talk about something more constructive but all in all i still prefer gossips more:) hahas.. they make me feel happier.. MUhahahahas..><
not sure why but gossips seems to have a very positive impact on me.. hahas.. talking about gossips just make me feel so happy and less irritated with myself and others.. hahahs..><
hmm.. should i blame the moodswings because i didnt take the evening primrose pills? lols..><
hope that should have been the reason for those uncontrollable outbursts of anger.. hahas..
maybe i should just try not flaring up and speaking loudly for a day to give it a start and start acting like a si wen gia.. hahas
gtg..bb

2009-11-07T17:36:00.001-08:00

i guess all defences cracked down yesterday..
I thought as long as i tried to avoid it, i wouldnt ever see you again in my entire life.
However, i was wrong. I wonder whether it was just a big joke played on me. But i realized it really wasnt..

When i first saw you from the top, i was thinking whether it might be you since the person looked almost exactly like you. I think you saw me too because you were looking at me with the look of recognition too.. For a moment, the defences i built from that period of time seemed to break down and shatter in just that moment..
Probably, it isnt that impactful on you because you seem to easily forget one and move on to another.. I am not like you.
I felt a little scared though..
I knew i didnt want to be like that or feel that way.. I thought time would eventually remove this painful scar.. Apparently time's not that effective after all..
it may sound like an exaggeration after all because what impact could there be from just meeting someone..
I looked away though.. I didnt want to keep looking at your expressionless face.
I knew it wasnt joy you felt upon seeing me, but you looked at me as though i was a stranger whom you knew many years ago. Sounds ironical. But i guess this is the most vivid description.
Just when i thought i could finally get a release from all this, I was wrong.

I thought for a while and realized perhaps I havent really forgotten about the past..

2009-11-05T17:24:00.000-08:00

Its a sunny day today though.. hahas.. i initially had piano though but my piano teacher fell ill and that leaves me with loads of free time though... but of course we wouldnt be that sadistic.. so get well soon though!! hahas...><
Recently, we sort of have loads of activites within my circle of friends for bonding..
ahas.. gunbound.. tennis even though it was quite short.. hmm.. class lunches? hahas.. not really the entire class but almost half of the class at Sumo House.. well it was almost the first time i have ever been to lunch in such a large group of 13 before.. it was quite fun though..
and it was also the first time i played gunbound in such a large group before.. hahas..><
didnt know it would be that fun.. hahas.. but stuff can happen in gunbound at times too.. LOLS..
well well, Op's kind of coming soon though.. its on Tuesday and I seriously think the faster it is over the better because i am very very tired of rehearsals over and over again.. and i am sure everyone shares the same sentiments too.. hahas..
so fast one year's passed.. everything seems to be moving fast and a lot of memories i wonder whether i've left them behind as time passes by... but i hope i did.. since i dont think holding on to it would matter a lot...
oh god.. somebody was staring at me as if he wanted to kill me yesterday... gives me the creeps though to wonder what he was actually thinking while carrying out that stare.. argh..
hmm..
suddenly realized we have only a few days left to start of holidays. on one hand, i feel quite relieved and excited that my holiday's coming soon while on the other hand sad to leave my friends.. hahas..><
on the last note..
bb:)

2009-11-04T03:30:00.000-08:00

hmm.. had a nice time playing gunbound yesterday though since its the first time we are playing in such a big group.. hahas..><>< I guess everyone of this age is just like that, things that come out of the mouth dont often carry a real meaning to it. After declaring an undying love, lols. how ridiculous will it get, a few days or weeks later, it just happens to die down ironically.. hahas... hmm.. i guess its time to wake up on your ideas and finally realized the undying love you proclaimed was probably just a 17 year old sudden fleeting crush that was mistaken as love... At this age, i guess we will probably never be able to truly appreciate the meaning of the greatest feeling on earth..
hahahs..>,<
on a brighter side, i really enjoyed the lunches because we had the time of our lives gossiping about some lame stuff and lame people though.. hahas...
Hope the happy days still persist though!! :)

2009-11-03T00:40:00.000-08:00

just went for lunch with about 13 people at Sumo house near Ang Mo kio Hub.. its like the second time i ate there and i seriously think the sushi don is getting more and more addictive well on second thought i should try something new when i go there the next time.. next stop went to coffee bean to chill out with emelynn, rachelle, serene and valerie plus bryan and keith.. lol..had the time of my life talking and talking though.. lols..><
but it wasnt that guo ying because i couldnt really stay for long.. hahas..><

well. what can i say?
I was just disappointed at your once again irresponsible behaviour.
sort of immune to it now.

2009-10-30T02:10:00.000-07:00

First
my mood swings were getting on my nerves and my head was aching like crap... well in another words you could summarize everything and say that i was in the crappiest mood ever...
After throwing several tantrums i felt slightly better and thought otherwise because i didnt want to spoil the mood of others too so i started smiling and forcing myself to crack some jokes.. honestly i did feel better after that
Next, had the second quarrel about the same person again and again?
The last time I remembered it didnt seem that long ago to me.
well i guess her tears are more important than anything else.
Didnt want to talk because everything would just sound bad when it comes out from my mouth from that point in time.
Forced myself to shut up and i did.
Couldnt really stand the silence so i came up with some stupid and idiotic question to ask. I guess it didnt help again though.
Forget it.
Reminds me of the days where i had to keep trying to lower my pride to get the liking of the person back again.. sick of those days and thought i could finally get over them when one of those days comes along again.
Couldnt help but ask myself what's the most important to you once again? the tears of another or just compromising the happy moments by quarreling over that one person.
Perhaps her tears matter more in this case.
I never had direct answer before. Not since a long time and i guess this is the moments for direct answers...I guess it isnt really that important to you after all.. since you've never experienced something like that.. I knew it was coming thats why i didnt want to ready myself for it.. but forget it. I guess it seriously doesnt matter.
Counting down still though to 23rd.

2009-10-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

lols.. nah.. the previous post is a prank one.. lols..
not sure how many people actually read my blog..lols.. probably a fingerful of people? LOLS..
hmm.. i guess i strted counting the days left to 23rd November...
sometimes still keep assuring myself there's still a lot of time but in fact the days just keep passing by so quickly.
day by day
its just over like that

2009-10-29T02:30:00.000-07:00

someone asked me to blog and i did

2009-10-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

probably had the most enjoyable days among the many other days since the end of promos because most of the time i am stuck with pw... Lols... Blogging with my new phone now which is probably the most difficult thing on earth because my hands or rather fingers are not that dainty as i think they are... Lols and the keys are all stuck together... Hmm we played mahjong today with yihao and emelynn and yihao was probably the person talking most of the time but well it was partivularly enjoyable with all the jokes and the bragging yihao made...

2009-10-18T18:07:00.000-07:00

lols..>< back to blog again..
highlights for the day? : Woonyeow, Emelynn and Yihao the ah beng is coming to my house to play mahjong. LOLS...><
hmm.....
just went to facebook to browse through photos.. losl.. realized i looked exactly the same now as compared to one year ago. LOLS. i mean how much can anyone change within a year. Well, looks cant change but people do change, I guess after a year, looks cant really change but people and their way of thinking does change..
gotta go.. continue this emo post when i am free again! :)

2009-10-16T23:34:00.000-07:00

its been such a long time since i ever blogged.. I think it was before promos i posted so seriously thinking it isnt really that long..
probably had the most terrible days of my life..
not sure how to mention but its kind of sick thinking of it though.. trying to act unaffected at times but sometimes just really cant help but expressing what I feel..
Dont wanna add pressure but and yet I dont know how not to..
I probably look stupid to everyone, being upset over something that doesnt even concern me or rather i should be worrying about myself first before others. think it really looks stupid to the rest...well she's right though, who am I to add pressure upon others or rather on you. ARGH< forget it.. dont feel like saying anything anymore. it's your life and your choice.I guess the least i can do it just to worry for you as a friend.
on the bright side, yesterday i went to Boon Lay to eat roti prata and chicken Brani there and i seriously think that BOON LAY has the best chicken Brani on EARTH.. lols.. rather exaggerated but maybe in Singapore? hahas...><
hmm... i was rather impressed with the system they came up with to notify their customers with the buzzers like thing whereby its something like a device where is vibrates and lights up when your food's done..then the customers can go collect their food when it vibrates from the counter. LOLS its so damn cool right!!! hahass.....
then i went on to shop at BOONLAY with my family and Jurong Point's expanded like so so much!!!!!! hahas...>< i was super amazed by the size of it lor...heh.. i guess i am easily impressed by stuff ba..
:)
hahas..>< lemme see then i came home and played si se pai with my ah ma till around twelve plus at night.. lols... its seriously damn fun.. form of traditional games LOLS...>< of course we added the factor of money in it to make it more exciting if not it wouldnt be really interesting.. LOLS...>< sounds so money minded.. hmm....
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How much time do we have left?
shall we do a countdown?

2009-08-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

Well, I am increasing the frequency of my blogging!!!!! lols..
but i am seriously too busy with too much revision too little time...
Muhahahas...
well, not much to write obviously because i spent the whole day trying to figure out the vecotrs tutorials PLUS another half the day dedicated to my kick boxing class PLUS aerobics class back to back for two whole hours every week at Bukit Gombak!!! =.=
Generally very very tired because we had to punch here and there.. =.= do CRUNCHES.not sure whether that's the correct spelling... PHEW. plus cross training and its probably lao tian de en ci that i dont have school on Monday which means i dont have PE-.-... I finally passed my NAFA test though which was quite troublesome and irritating because i kept residing at 150 plus cm and thats what caused all my retests and misery.. +.=
Its only 10.09pm and my eyes are already like half closed-.-. shit.
Thats the result of having back to back aerobics and kickboxing class..... GOD>=/=
i feel that i am obviously crapping and crapping...
I wonder who that pretty girl in class wy's sis pointed out though? hmmm... LOLS><
but obviously i will never get to know it because he will probably give me that =.= face and beat around the bush saying that I am never that girl his sis is talking about though.. .--.-.. might as well not ask.. seriously.=.=
lols..><..
hmm...
its kind of quiet though now..
everyone's obviously sleeping.. because we all have a habit of sleeping early and getting up early.. i mean ALL of us though.. hahas...
well, we drove past Raffles Town Club though,, couldnt help but feel a sense of nostalgia.. Sometimes really wonder whether I can ever let go of anything. WELL>
life goes on though.. haiis..
poof. away with pessimistic thoughts i guess?
ITS SOOOO TIRING>... i guess that should be enough.. =.=
my dog's asking me to sleep now.. :)
SO I SHALL GOOOOOOOOO......... NIGHTIES.
well i saw the mtv for Wo bu pei by zhou jielun.. SO NICE.
but yeah.. its quite saddening like the last part though..:)

2009-08-07T00:40:00.001-07:00

hmm.. was it quite long since i posted?
not very sure but yeah!! I am here again.. lols
this is probably the last post i am going to post before the next post because i am probably busy preparing for my promos. LOLS... yeppos..
there's a sort of countdown to promos according to yeerui its actually 60 days.. god which is like super fast.. EEYER. Hate exams though.. lols... who likes them anyway.
hahas.. it was National day today though.. initially thought i had spa make up bio and eventually when i went to school, they told me it was cancelled. Haiis sian.. But eventually i went to eat with YiHao Woon Yeow Christine Livvi Dawei Kenneth and Arnold at Pizza Hut at Ang Mo Kio which probably has the worst service in the all of the pizza huts i have ever been to... =.= Kenneth was pissed which was very surprising because i always thought he would never get pissed off about anything.. Well, the food arrived only after close to 1 hr of waiting and at the point we arrived the whole place was not even crowded pls. =.= Bai Tuo, the business wasnt very good to the point of everyone flooding the place though i had to admit there was a lack of manpower. =.-"
one funny thing did happen because there happened to be"oriental chicken " on the menu and Yihao was saying he wanted " Orientation chicken" which sounded damn funny when he said it to the waitress.. Other than that, the food was quite nice. But i was too angry about the service to even bother because as the saying goes" a hungry girl is an angry girl" LOLS. :) cant blame me... lols..><
hmm.. it was quite a bad day because we wanted to eat super cheap jap food.. and when we went all the way there we realized it was close. Eveeryone was like hot and tired after all that walking so Dawei said we could eat Suki Sushi which is also quite cheap. BUT. when we went there again, it was closed=.= And i was making a joke about the Suki Sushi being Sucky sushi because i was very very tired and my stomach was aching after all the walking. Fatigue, an aching stomach and a excessively full bladder probably caused all that irritation thats why. =.=
Eventually we settled down for Pizza hut even though everyone was cashless or was it me? LOLS. yeppos... what a bad day though =.= the food was good but the service really sucks... tsk..
National day wasnt really type of day i expected but yeah overall could tell the coucillors did put in a lot of effort :) so i would say it was okly enjoyable:) hmmm... thats about it? you can go to facebook to see the photos!!! :)

2009-07-26T06:06:00.001-07:00

feel like spamming my blog before everything gets busy again..
hahas...
so many things i wanted to talk about previously but I just get speechless when it comes to blogging here.. hahas..
yepps.. my ah ma's diabetes level's been bothering me for quite a while.. it was like 7.6 when she last measured which considerably high though.. then its like she doesnt really control her diet and continues to have a high intake of sugar and heaty stuff like chocolate and stuff. which led to me thinking about the way of life people are really about health problems.. you just dont realize the severity of the health problem not until it strikes you bad and not to mention that at that point in time it doesnt really help to just stop eating. or rather this applies to other stuff other than diabetes. Then when you recover again, you just start eating all over again and the cycle repeats till there is probably an urgent signal to stop the cycle. well.
sometimes i guess it really doesnt help when people keep reminding you to take care of your health everything when you yourself dont really wanna control it yourself. You. are alone for almost half the day but can people around you actually monitor you everyday and every point in time. haiis,
makes me feel sian diao..
Guess thats the main reason why i keep feeling moody this few days and feel like prancing at everyone well,, sorry guys.

Speech day!

2009-07-24T04:47:00.000-07:00

hahas.. well, it was speech day today! hahas.. i anticipated it for quite a while ever since i've been admitted into AJC. lols..>< but generally it was quite fun and i was very excited at the fact of seeing Weili at Macdonald along with our class peeps but honestly i had this chong dong to scream and shout out loud when i saw all 4T1 classmates even though we werent very bonded from the start to the end, however, i still felt quite excited to see all of those familiar faces...
anw we started off quite well with some speech by Mr Lee which was surprising quite interesting and i found myself listening to it.. lols..>< even though it was blistering hot when he was talking and i was distracted by a china girl who called to ask me whether i had time to do a survey, but anw god knows how she got my number?
as for the performances, lols.. shall not comment about them. In addition, lols, use f connectors.. heh,, ps i sidetracked but yeah eventually there was a cold cheer(kind of soft) because of the small numbers of Bpians(130) that came back. Given in the past, the current bpians invited would have cheered alongside with us. Well, the food was kind of ok and i sort of spent my time with joyce chatting about Aj stuff and occassionally cracking lame stuff with jiale and weilun. lols.. well, eventually i think i finally feel so much more reassured when i told her i was very sorry for the past, whether or not it was useful, i was happy i did pluck up the courage to say that. I went back around 7 plus which was considered kind of early for most of them because everyone was still partying around and everything and wee kiat and jiale even went on to play volleyball after everything. lols.. it was generally nice to have everyone back. But yeah went kind of emo when i walked back alone, still wondering when wouuld we finally gather everyone together once more for a perfect day like this... hmm.. and i guessed it was really pointless to ask him to take any photos with me because i found it a total waste of time. I got over it finally, i guess?

2009-07-06T01:49:00.001-07:00

Its raining outside, ok sort of drizzling and this is probably the last day of the long holiday we had because common tests were often quite short, the maximum was only around 3hrs so yeah. anyways, the common tests were ok but some like maths were sort of killer papers. SO. yeps. BURP>
lols..><
phew. college life's kinda of fast, in just a blink of an eye, half a year's gone and we are going into the second semester of school. Thats lucky for me since i dont really like my college. OMG!
i forgot to mention speech day is just round the corner 24th JULY 2009!!!!!
hahas..>< been expecting to go back for speech day for quite a long period of time since probably the period since i received my O level results.
we can probably see our very noisy and fun classmates like weili and edrei again :):):):)
hahas..><
haiis.. time's really flying.
well, lets keep our fingers crossed to make sure everything's ok for CT :) WOOHOOS

2009-06-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

you will never believe what a terror he was. I mean my cousin. all of you i mean it would probably faint at his behaviour which is similar to that of Frankenstein. :)
From the start of the day, we went to the water park at the rooftop terrace of Lot one whereby there were many kids running around and a superb kid who thought he was acting out "Mission Impossible" rolling around everywhere, darting from one point to another point. He knocked into my cousin which was a sad thing for him. because he obvsiously didnt liked it and tripped him with his beach spade.
=.=
Childish.
then we drove all the way to the freaking East Coast and along the way, he squirmed, screamed and shouted at anything. 3S right.-.-
when we got there he insisted that he was the clever one and dragged me down to the beach to play with him. Being nice, i did force myself to go down, eventually getting myself wet because mr smartie pants was afraid of the water and squirmed about and splashed water everywhere. I was seething with irritation when i went back the shore with my whole leg filled with irritating sand and disgusting seaweed stuck to it.
Next, kite flying. obviously mr smartie pants wanted to impress my mum with his knowledge on flying kites, insisted he wanted the kite and i obviously had to give in to him. MR SP then ran from one end of the beach to the other flying the kite, eventually nearly destroyed because he dragged it from one end to the other, obviously everyone was fooled by his innocent demeanour as he gave me a killer smile when everyone was out of sight.(not literally)
When we got back, I ACCIDENTALLY broke one of his spades and he was seriously very upset by it. Crying and making a din when everyone was about to faint with fatigue. He continued throwing his tantrums and threatened to lock himself in his so called his room.
=.= childish
he's going to be with me for the next 7 days +.=

2009-06-19T21:46:00.000-07:00

poof.. my cousin's coming back today at 9pm.. my god. lols.>< its going to be hell at night. Anyways, got a little upset over something which i felt i shouldnt read but yeah. I read it so it doesnt matter anymore. Lols..><
hmm.. let me see.. nothing big is going on except for the busy installation preparations as well as a noisy mahjong game that was distracting me just now and made me feel quite irritated.. my god. cant wait for December holidays then i can like ask joyce and maybe weien over and weekiat they all to come over for ps2 xbox andmost importantly mahjong. Lols.. reminds me of the days where weili and weekiat kept playing lord of the rings that threatened to explode my xbox.
nothing's really happened this few days except for my cute little bao bei baby was trying to attract my attention while i was studying.. rolling around in the study room and growling at the sky with her toy in her mouth. before i realized she was trying to attract my attention, she got fed up and refused to acknowledge me when i called her to make it up to her. what a cute tyrant but she's still my little baby:) hahas..><
anw its woonyeow's birthday today if i didnt get it wrongly because i wrote it down in my organizer.. it SHOULD be correct:)
omg HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hahas..>,< sad I cant go out together with you and Yongqing to celebrate your birthday if not we would have brought you to somewhere nice and "cheap" to eat your fill:)
hahas.. with all your lame jokes, i ccant believe you are 17!!

2009-06-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

lols.. cant believe there are actually people reading my blog..
lols... its kind of boring at times and it just contains loads of emo crap from me:)
hahas...>< anw my cousin from China is coming back and i am like on the verge of fainting upon the thought of him climbing up and down my bed.. even yelling at my ear in the morning to wake me up. That terrible monster.
Well, just had random thoughts about the past again but i suddenly realized the past's really passed.
what a phrase but yeps. dont feel like talking about it anymore. Random emoness.
nights

2009-06-17T01:59:00.000-07:00

decided to blog again on this dreadfully hot Wednesday afternoon.
Work seems to be pilling up from all kinds of sources and i seriously wonder how others cn actually cope with it or are they just struggling like me behind that relaxed face. Interact's installation p[racticlly driving me insane as I am afraid of nittty gritty details tht will be missed out, especially anything regarding the invitations. Hais. what a drag though

Random thoughts i started to have while i ws trying very hard to fall asleep last night. Sometimes, we really do expect someone to help out, give a word of encouragemnt but in the end people are probably just waiting to see you fall off your chair. People from the "top" schools would probably never expect such a behaviour because they will probably fall of their chair once in many years unlike should i say commoners like us. Eventually, telling them of such problems therefore doesnt seem to help becuause you will probably just get a kind reply which lacks depth becaus the person has yet to experience it before.Eventually, you feel the whole world's crashing down on you because you cant seem to get anyone to understand how the shit you feel and all of a sudden you just feel like blaring out a string of vulgarities tht wwill probably scare the pants off your parents. I feel this way sometimes but do you? the person reading my blog?
well, well, we start to tell ourselves dont worry man its just stress. and you realize you really need to chill out with your friends and start to hope that you can rewind the times back to secondary school even where you could play all day long. Play volleyball at the back of the canteen after school, join numerous interhouse competitions, participate in your school's singing competition, go for numerous CCA rehearsals and yet still get the best out of everything. I used to think that way but i think everyone who thinks that way should wake up now. Or rather i should wake up too.
Yepps. the past's nice, memorable and can we ever reverse time by thinking that way, shouldn't our time be spent in a more productive way instead of reminiscing about the freaking past. Missing others seems nice, we try so hard to get ourselves to get
in touch with that familiar and relaxing times again but we fail to realize that nah. no one's going to stop for you. and time isnt going to go back.

this was like a realization i made while i was trying to drown out my grandma's annoying snore. But indeed, it seems logical to be thinking this way.

Phew. and when everyone starts to admire you, you start to have added stress. what if i dont perform as well as tht freaking guy in class? or what if i fall?
Lend a hand to yourself because thats the only thing thats going to happen i guess. :)

bb:)

Ironical change

2009-05-31T20:53:00.000-07:00

omg.. realized its been like damn long since i posted around 3 months.. hahas... but guess it doesnt really matter because nobody really reads this blog.. hahas..
decided to keep up with my blog during this holiday.. done about half of my homework but planning to complete everything within this week before i go for my holiday though at Bali.. hahas...
Sometimes not very sure.. used to think the whole world's revolving around myself but now i seem to think it through because it really isnt the case.
Just a random thought though, weekiat was like super shocked i could play piano when he saw me playing at the freaking stuffy school hall and he said he wanted to learn so that he could express his emoness which sounds kind of stupid and funny at the same time.. Honestly, i did feel kind of emo while playing piano.. All my friends have like kind of changed? Only Joyce is here with me at AJ but both of us have our different sets of routines and stuff to do.. Apart from going to school together everyday i guess thats the only connection have left with whats left of BP. kind of missed my secondary school now. I was like playing piano in the school hall and i looked around at the somewhat strange unfamiliar school hall and i suddenly thought of the times i spent at the school hall playing piano during recess time.. hahahs...>< how annoying and yet fun at the same time..
Added responsibilities, they bring about a sense of pride within me but i still feel better as a sectional leader even though in charge of a very slack one but we were all conncted in some way, Pearlynn me Yeerui Wan Qing and everyone else. I was still the childish, always joking SL in the group. With added responsibilities, with a club to handle, i always find that we can longer behave the same way as we did because everyone is expecting you to act more mature and be able to handle the stuff allocated as well as your studies. There is a burden but it is still manageable.. The only thing that i will probably reminisce is the behaviour we can exhibit now.
Age changes the way we feel, think? But can we stop age from changing our lives?
We dont crack the jokes we used to, dont talk th same way, dont play with the weirdest and most irritating stuff.. Its something i looked forward to but now i seem to just regret my age that i cant stop from increasing.. how ironical it may seem its still what i feel nevertheless.. But one thing i am looking forward to is Speech day at BP. The place i guess i will really feel at home and the place where so many memories have been left behind there... :) lets all look forward to that day.

2009-04-25T04:36:00.000-07:00

got selected to be president of interact club..
guess it's good news?
since i always wanted to chuang yi fen da shi ye.. lols.. even though i am not very sure whether is it big?
hahas...
apparently its not tht easy after all.. there are like many many smll matters for you to handle,numerous emails to send out and sometimes you wonder what kind of duties to assign to other people? lols..I guess its an EXCO but sometimes we may even wonder about the duties we need to do

2009-04-11T00:53:00.000-07:00

ok great ten days since i posted.. lols
well, got selected for EXCO in Interact club, everyone will be like so what?
right?
honestly, it seems a hige achievement to me because there were hell lot of people interviewing for it and only 8 got selected.. yepps.. the results whether we got voted to be president will be out on wednesday which is seriously making me very nervous and yet excited at the same time. I wanna do something big for the first time not just be a group leader? Sectional leader or some mere lowly position but at least the president of something. i wanna make reforms that will benefit everyone and not only myself. But i guess everything's up to them whether to vote for me? lols..><

on a more pessimistic note, keep feeling super sianded over you.=.=
you are seriously taking up a lot of my time. Sometimes, i wonder whether i will ever get over you and tell myself"hey everything's over. stop thinking"
4 months?
is it long?
Joyce said it was. But honestly, i think it seems quite short. I will neevr be able to forget the way we talked and joked and spent time with each other but i guess i cant bring back anything. I stopped our relation and i guess its for the good of us. Two years later. I will wait for you and i am certain no one will replace you.

2009-04-01T04:36:00.000-07:00

ok... what else but post about school again..
i realize JC life is seriously what weili says"mundane"?
hahas.. Obviously everyone has to go through this somewhat process unless you choose to go Poly?

hais... Time seems to pass very slowly.. not sure why. Dont like the environment i am in now but i dont dislike it too. T1 seems so far away now and I seriously regret not cherishing the time I spent in T1 though i seriously did enjoy them very much.Weili, Edrei, Joyce, Yinlan.Laughing at lame stuff. Daring each other to do stupid stuff.Laughing at over stuff that seriously seems too freaking lame for 16 year ols to even laugh at... Waiting for Speech day.. Seriously am. The moment i think of it i cant help but rejoice i am finally going back to my comfort zonen where i knew everyone for the past four years the school i am really attached to BPGHS!! WOOHOOS
Pearlynn CO WAN CHING DA GU TIMPANI
everything seems so distant now and yet close to my heart.
Picking up the drum sticks seems the only thing i wanna do now.. Beat the Matsuri tune:)
Long day i had. with killing PEs on Monday and Tuesday. We should lodge a complain. Our Glycogen doesnt have enough time to reform within 48 hours. WHat are we expending our eneergy on!!!We got the funniest lecturer today.. whereas the computer popped up some sound that comes out when there is an error. then everyone WOOOOO... then she said "its ok.. its lucky its not my heartbeat!!!!!! LOLS
k it doesnt s9ound funny but i took a long time to get over it when she said it. lols..>< kk signing off bb

2009-03-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i stop to think whats the purpose of you appearing now and then. There is seriously no purpose in that. I wanted to dispose of the things given but I didnt. I stopped to ask you whether you would keep to your promise.You said you would see how things go? I dont understand why i am waiting. Aimlessly in fact.
I even went to the extent of betting with someone how long would you take to get another crush again. I guess it wouldnt take long. I realize people really just enjoy how much they are making you feel angry and upset.. They seriously do.
end.

Baby and Niko just had the honour of being showered by their loving owners.. lols.. and baby got her haircut at last.. I know she was anticipating it because my personalized haircuts for her are absolutely fantastic. lols.. This of course is subjective as my sis seems to think its quite ugly.=.=
ALWAYs.
Just spent the whole week i realized doing homework, revising, homework and eventually just revising again. There's a T1 outing again on Saturday and i seriously dont know whether i should go for it even though i am surely not allowed to go for stupid reasons stated. I shall not elaborate on that because it just seeks to piss me off.
10.00am seems like the perfect timing to wake up though.. hahas.. the holiday's finally going to be over.:) hate holidays. They seem to be more stressful than school days itself although the early mornings also seem to be less appealing. lols..><
We are supposed to complete 2.4km below 16 min.. lols.. and i didnt do any training this week when our pe instructor asked us to train everyday. Where have i been? Pactially stuck at home.. LOLS
well.
I guessits difficult for me to even try to go out because the sun's simply too hot for anyone to step outside.:)
hahas...
gotta go though.. go loads of stuff to complete and do:)

March Holidays!!

2009-03-17T02:40:00.000-07:00

hahas.. its the March Holidays although it isnt really meant as a holiday at all!!!!!!
hahas..><
most of the time or rather the whole of the day i spend is usually on homework, homework and more homework...
which is seriously ridiculous how much the pile can make up to.
However, i seriously understand the opportunity cost of not reading my freaking bio, econs lecture notes even though i dont enjoy any marginial utility of reading them? Nor does the demand for this notes go up despite the price of them going up?? its like almost everyday we are paying for stufffff.... like lecture notes and tutorials.. still miss my textbooks that can be thrown around.. at least the cost price of them is notthat high and i do get a marginal utility of throwing them around when i feel frustrated... lols..><
well well, i just finished a whole load of revision for the many tests to come next term plus loads of self revision tests..._>_>_ Life's tough..
hahas.. for entertainment puroposes.. i like to do dedications to people:)
hahas..>< especially friends.. well... we shall start off with the friend that is absolutely MOST ... one.:)
hahas.. tml will be another dedication:)
well, let me see whether you all can actually guess who this fellow actually is.

MUHAHAHAs..
its a guy. A GUY FRIEND
NOT BOYFRIEND=.= I SERIOUSLY EMPHASIZE.
you would think h seriously looks like a huge nerd with his algaeish braces and rounded specs that looks like they havent been changed for the past 10 years.Carrying a huge bag that he claims to be a famous skateboard brand from USA and somewhat expensive. well it doesnt really appeal to me because it has numerous tears at the bottom of the bag which threaten to puncture anytime at his somewhat rough handling. =.= I asked him to change a bag but he said he would sew it back and repair it. Unfortunately, it was a lie that i failed to expose.
=.=
cheated.
A very very good person at procrastinating and fails to realize the importance of completing all his homework at a time and likes to finish his homework all in a shot. =.=
great..
its the same concept he applies to his teeth.
he doesnt brush them twice in a day. and believes in brushing them once at a time. "clear all the stuff in a go" he refuses to admit this is disgusting but it seriously is to me.

let me see... some good points.. PROBABLY very little.
He doesnt talk much during lectures?
lols..>< is that considered one because no one distracts me from listening.Although i do feel like chattering non -stop and screaming out loud. Sudden outbursts of anger which do i enjoy throwing.
hahas..><
on the other hand, he is a nice person though.. cheering people up when you feel quite sad and everything. With his super lame and sarcastic jokes, you will start to feel as if nothing matters but scolding him for his lame jokes that are SERIOUSLY lame. recalling one. we were taking ic photos and required to pay for them. He said" They should be paying me for the photos because i allowed them to take mine" ok it doesnt seem that funny while typing it out but i can assure you you will burst out in laughter upon hearing the way he says that, with some traces of minor vulgarities hidden within his sentences.
PICKY. is the word to describe someone like him because he practically thinks everything tastes awful when you introduce a dish to him. excitedly, you would have asked him" HOW?? How is it??? ISNT IT VERY NICE"
he will be looking up with noodles stuck everywhere and saying it sucks. and it doesnt taste nice.
and there you go looking distasteful.

well thats about it???lols..><
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2009-03-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

T1 CLASS PHOTO!!! hahas..><
i like an auntie although

2009-03-15T03:16:00.000-07:00

heys long time since i posted.. SAME. it doesnt mean i am trying to like detach myself from the blog or what just that i seriously have SO much stuff to do like bio tutorials, math tutorials, reading GP stuff, chem tuto PLUS econs lecture.. phew.. sounds like a lot but i am lucky i completed them.. hahas..>< Well, JC life's going on pretty well with Woonyeow being possibly the main entertainer in school even though I used to think he didnt talked much initially, but as the weeks progressed, i realized he really can be a chatterbox when he wants to. lols..>< anywways, he's a nice friend and a rather helpful one at times. Even though he refuses to lend me money to buy my favourite brownies from POSH in school but he is still a nice friend. LOLS

Many days seemed to have passed, however, i realized living anew really isnt that easy as it seems.. My blog's URL is living anew but sometimes when i ask myself i really wonder whether i have already forgotten the past and lived anew.I hope I am.
Seriously.
Its hard to forget about the past as well as you. Walking through familiar grounds, seeing familiar things, I cant help but feel a pang of guilt for taking things for granted when the times were memorable. Eventually, when i listen to songs that remind me of the past, i guess its really hard to forget everything after all.
I always thought just sticking to someone else might help but i think i am just making everything worse at times.
It is unfair at times, you are living on with your life while i am struggling with mine. However, i still cant help but ask myself who was in the wrong. Or rather who made the mistake of saying things we didnt mean. We were childish and didnt really understand the meaning of promises to each other.
I cant help but ask myself whether have you ever thought of the past as well. Like the way i always do.
Sometimes, misunderstandings are good.
They make appear to be a person who lets go of stuff easily. I dont feel like standing out to clarify what others think of and say, because the misunderstandings make me feel better even though they may not be true.
"Its not important what others say about you"
Some friend told me.
I said" you look like a tk lei..lols"
he said" appearance is not important"

It seems very long since i heard such a thing where people do not deny other statements but instead tell them that they dont mind it.It sort of triggered my thinking even though i went on arguing with him. I guess this person acts like Clarisse in Fahrenheit 451? hahas.. Catalysts for my thoughts.
I guess appearance really doesnt matter that much in our case. It didnt help both of us..I realized another's thinking which is far more mature in the case. I guess.
But i think the past is not going to pass that soon.

2009-03-02T01:13:00.000-08:00

lols..its been like pretty long since i have posted.. about 10 days?
hahas.. i wanted to make it a habit to post everyday but unfortunately my busy schedule in AJ forbids such a habit or rather hobby
lols..><
anyways, yeps, settling down in my JC now or rather with my class 24/09..
hahas.. the class consists of loads of english speaking people and i am forced to communicate in english in school, something i dont really do other than at home. lols.. however, joyce and gang do speak chinese so it makes it easy for me to be BILLINGUAL. and excuse me its EFFECTIVELY i hope:)
hahas.. nevertheless, my birthday is over.. about 10 days 6 days ago, around a week ago or rather... received loads of gifts.. hahas.. a special card from JOYCE WOON YEOW and MY CLASS!! hahas.. plus a gift from my class, three dogs stuff toys another dog stuff toy and a stitch stuff toy!! Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday!! hahas..><
Sometimes i realized life's difficult. Everything is controlled. where you want to go, what time you are going home, who are you meeting, what are you staying back for?
restrictions after restrictions we will all face.

but nevertheless i couldnt care.
time's supposed to flush away our memories isnt it?
I suppose sometimes there are one or two cases it doesnt work and in one way and another we have to seek a remedy to stop ourseleves from thinking.
thats it.

2009-02-16T02:06:00.000-08:00

LOLS.. its kind of small but about one quarter of my OG mates:) hahas.. they are all very nice people and the person taking the photo for us is Bryan! :) hahas.. another of my OG mate:)

2009-02-13T19:38:00.000-08:00

yeerui sleeping while on the mrt.. tou pai de:)

both yeerui and I got wet while running in the rain to the mrt station nearby... hahas...><

some bird shit on the canteen table that irked me and joyce while we were eating..
lols..orientation was kind of crazy for the last few days and the wet games we had wasnt exactly THAT wet which they promised it would be. The worst was actually the orientation finale which wasnt really very that FINAL because the atmosphere or rather the highness did not really peak that night except for the last part where we cheered for our OGLS that were like super enthu and caring throughout the whole time:)
hahas.. prior to that, i was encouraged by ryan my ogl to take on the position of class leader? lols..>< which is like super impossible unless my SUPER GOOD friend woon yeow who likes to sabo me from the back and front proposes my name.. Can you imagine we were supposed to play this game where we wrote the comments of the classmates in our og on a piece of paper and mr woon yeow actually wrote a super big word THICK SKINNED on the paper for mine.. lols..>< and he was like giggling away when he realized i saw it before he passed the paper down!!!!!! GOD
zhen shi de.. !!
and pls stop pairing me and woon yeow NGUAN HAN AND WEE KIAT!!!!! both of you are super wu liao! and we are not together!! we are just the only bps in MENKENT OUR LOVELY CLAN!
zhen shi de...
on the other hand, next week we will be starting our lessons soon and we have like a seven subject lecture on Monday which is probably the worst thing that can ever happen.. Lucky for us we dont have pe next week YET!!! but we will probably facing deviline pe teachers for our pe which i "CANT" wait man.. god..

2009-02-10T03:57:00.000-08:00

just shut up about him and you because i am seriously not interested in whatever you did with him and stop being such a huge ass because i am very irritated with the way you think i am interested.

2009-02-09T01:17:00.000-08:00

lols.. nh and wk having their lunch at the hawker centre near our school

yeerui and me

lols.. wk looks super spastic.. hahas..>< the pic is near our school bookshops. lols.. i asked all of them to take pictures but ended i only got a few photos.. lols

Orientation first day:(

2009-02-08T23:51:00.000-08:00

lols..once again i wasnt really spiced up by the orientation that promised to be blowing our minds and honestly i think it just blew out some boredom in me.I found more pleasure talking to the bpians and WoonYeow whom i have just known, as in become on talking terms with in my class OG24!!! hahas.. which are a bunch of people that dont really cheer unless we are asked to. Somewhat like T1 but a rather more dull and quiet people who probably take more pleasure cheering. Once, i even heard a guy from my class saying our orientation was a complete waste of time. LOls.. we shouldnt say it that way, it still injects some form of entertainment but not really as fun as the days we spent in BP cheering.
hahas..><.. we sat the train together(me, yeerui, joyce yeo, wee kiat, Nguan Han,Kenneth) and throughout we were like laughing and joking around.. lols.. Wee kiat had like OR BI BEI stuck in between his bottom row of teeth and I just couldnt help but be distracted by the lump of black stuff in between his teeth and when i told him about him everyone ended laughing at his OR BI BEI.. lols..
hahas..
On the other hand, i am still puzzled and bothered about which cca to join. Gosh. =.=

2009-02-07T19:02:00.000-08:00

My dad in front of the new year decos that was seriously damn cute.. because the cows, oxes or etc were moving their heads.. it looked both spastic ans cute at the same time :) hahas..

lols.. my sis and me posing for the camera.. but after a while, we got tired of the chingay because even at 7.30pmm, the parade did not even start and there seemed to be many unknown singers singing chinese new year songs on stage. Lucky for them, it didnt rain.. lols..><

lols.. we went to the chingay yesterday and my sis, me and my mum took a pic there even though it was like super crowded and irritating with people pushing in all directions.. lols

last day of matriculation week!

2009-02-06T01:13:00.000-08:00

oh god it was like the last day of matriculation week..
and we spent the whole day playing primary school like games which seemed to be "stretching" our potential. --.--"
when i recap the games we played over lunch, all of us moaned in unison and once again regretted ever stepping into AJC with probably the most horrible orientation in my opinion and probably my group of friends too. gosh.
First was the game on whispering messages in a line which we played in secondary school and of course we would have expected more mature games like having sports, gaining points. True enough it isnt good to plan a good orientation but there seems to be JCs making use of their facilities like the MPH to make the orientation more appealing or at least more attendable to us. However, we shouldnt disregard the efforts of the councillors because they did put in much effort to make it possible.
hahas..>.<
Well, we had a fun time as we went out to try the fitness stations in the so called stadium in the school.
Zhengwei was like super spastic because he had this weird expression on his face and was acting like a cheetah or what while marching. lols..><
on the other hand, another station that was available was the board suspended.. sort of walking on the suspended board. All of us were like trying to move the board to make the person standing on it fall. Joyce was like there screaming away, saying she couldnt remain in balance. Another amusing thing was that zw was playing with the bars and he looked like a puppet with seriously no control of his lower body.. hahas...>< it looked real stupid. lols.. honestly i should have taken a pic of his spastic look.. hahas..>,<

god i am tired. lols..>< i think i need to sleep soon.. bye:)

2009-02-05T00:38:00.001-08:00

lols.. zheng wei fa daiing while and i caught him in action. Or rather i tou paied him.. hahas..><

lols.. zheng wei and joyce both wrestling. Actually this pictures show how boring life is in AJ and everyone has to resort to doing activites such as wrestling to kill time.. hahas..>< but all in all we laughed a lot.. especially when i heard the rendition of the eh.. ba cheer from zheng wei which sounded one kind of spastic.

yeerui and joyce tay and yeo looking both very stoned at the camera. Somehow i was unable to capture any nice group photos of the new AJcians. lols..>< or rather ex bpians.

Fourth day at AJ

2009-02-04T23:16:00.000-08:00

lols.. today was like totally boring and the whole day was making me tired and hungry which was terribly unbearable. I had to eat a hotdog, a tuna mayo sandwhich together from the cafe at the canteen because of the level of energy used up by our activites which involves taking a one hour long lecture on GCs which was the most irritating thing because I had a different model from the othersand i had to spend about an hour figuring out how to work out the stupid thing.
In the end, i left the lecture with my GC in hand, having the least inkling on how to operate it? =.=

However in the end, we were all super sianded by the timing and timetable aj had planned out for us and in the end, at the end of this week, nobody had the best impression or changed perspective of the aj which we were about to enter in. =.=

Second day orientationl

2009-02-03T00:33:00.000-08:00

lols.. I experienced my second day of orientation today and I seem to be immune to the boring schedule that aj actually arranged for us. In addition, we had like many hours waiting for the next lecture. Actually we also had our first econs lesson, honestly inititally i kind of enjoyed it because i realized how is it to sit in for a lecture.:)
Prior to that, we had an performance by the ogls and at the same time i was sitting next to some guy that was super hilarious, he was laughing at them saying thwe got aat they were having aces day. lols. Prior to that, he was making fun of the draco house we had, saying they was a harry potter house. =.= which is like super stupid the way he said it. I even had some stares because he was cracking lame jokes all the while and I was unable to control myself laughing uncontrollably.
=.=
To be honest, i think i would have prefered for the orientation to start soon. LOls
or rather i dont mind lessons starting. hahas..>< quite eager to study not sure why. which is like one kind of maddening. Its all because of AJC i have turned to become like this. hahas...>< anw i found this super hilarious website about our school. LOls.. its quite true but has a certain element of exaggeration. lols..>< www.ajcsucks.blogspot.com
oh god, we got a long day tml;

First day at AJC

2009-02-02T01:36:00.000-08:00

lols.. oh god it was like the first day at AJC today.
i suddenly realized the blogger of www.ajcsucks.blogspot.com had so many complains about it.Initialyl we had six friends all together from our school going there and when the day ended, all of us frowned and regretted ever stepping here.
lols.. at first i was wondering whether is it merely because of the monotnous schedule today whihc involved sitting down in a lecture auditorium without food and onyl occassional toilet breaks=.= its was apparent why wee kiat,me, joyce tay, yeo, yeerui, nh were moaning and grumbled about appealing over to pj which was nearer and probably having better fun.
Initially i was extremely excited about going to a foreign school with the prospect of meeting new friends, however, i was severely disappointed on our first day at school.The best part about the whole day was probably taking a train down to AMK hub and eating with them.=.= where we spent our last few hours outside moaning about our heartfelt regrets.
In addition, when i looked at the orientation programme list=.= i guess it was another severe disappointment. Basically because of the numerous talks that were arranged throughout the whole week and we were going to have a maths lecture on thursday??? whihc is like super fast??? accelerated learning is probably the approach we are going to have throughout our jc lives now.
I HEARD hci has two weeks of orientation??? oh god
=.=
look at ours.
phew.
But in the end, i still have to resign to my fate that i have chosen and submit to it
lols.>,< because people have to pay for the choices we make, but its not really that bad. The facilities, auditorium seems ok to me but everyone seems to be keen on taking 4H2 which is like =.= not very sure but unnecessary to me although.

I passed by the reservoir today on the way to Ang Mo kio.Guess it brought back some memories.But POOF everything is over now and we all have to pick ourselves up and learn how to live anew.

2009-01-30T03:11:00.000-08:00

lols . my relatives are like back.. of course together with this package includes my baby cousin which is as irritating as a very very fat fly.
lols..>< a weird description but acutely correct.
:)
anyways we went to ECP yesterday with him and i nearly fainted probably because of the terrible sun that was on the verge of piercing my skin.=.=god. i nealy fainted.
and my baby cousin was amusing himself with placing dirty seaweeds plus dirty mud into a huge pail, in pretense that he is a chef of a somewhat important place. The worst thing was that he even asked whether i wanted a portion of his "lovely" soup=.=
which seemed the most disgusting thing of the day.
After which, the nightmare continued with us going to the park and cck swimming complex whereby i was forced to accompany him to a toddler pool which explicitly stated it was only for young kids below six. the best thing was that this alerted some ah beng security guard who thought i wanted to re -enact my childhood once more by immersing myself in the baby pool??

gosh.
The worst thing was that some other infant found an excuse to deposit his digestive by products into the pool and my cousin who was certainly enjoying himself stepped on all those without even noticing the black and dirty smudge on his foot.=.=
great.
Well, i did find the wave pool quite fascinating while the slide there was one kind of a letdown because it neither pumped the person who used it with adrenaline nor did it excite the "slider" basically due to its terrible pump system that caused me to stop about 20 cm from the beginning of the slide, this terribly disappointed me because i had just begun to open my mouth to let out a frightening scream, preparing to let it echo throughout the slide.=.= Once again, the plan failed.

lols.. in the end i have to mention i actually got into Anderson JC and i bought the whole set of t shirt, uniform tie and i would have probably bought the school badge if the bookshop auntie told me it wwould be in the orientation package. =.=

First post

2009-01-28T19:06:00.000-08:00

lols.. decided to reopen a totally new blog, signifying the end of my secondary life and the start of my Junior college life:)
kind of anticipating everything thats going to start now but i guess we just have to patiently wait for time to pass by?
hahas...><
Starting anew is like something extremely nice and perfect especially when we just ushered in the year of the ox.. hahas.. and especially when at 17 we are approaching another phase of our lives where we are growing mentally, in other words becoming more mature but in the end, it proves to show that we have not only aged one year older but we should also bear in mind that we are now older to perform actions preferably suitable for our age.
Mistakes that have already been made, let them pass and learn from them.
I learnt something very important in this entire journey of ours, that we shouldnt be living in our own worlds. Honestly, till now i have realized that friends and family are probably the most important of them all in our lives. An expensive lesson learnt but at least i learnt it and I will faer the repetition of it.

Everything's going slow in our own way and we should handle it, take it to our own stride, according to weili.. yeps. I have taken that advice and i realized its time we move on with each of our lives and not live in others.