heys long time since i posted.. SAME. it doesnt mean i am trying to like detach myself from the blog or what just that i seriously have SO much stuff to do like bio tutorials, math tutorials, reading GP stuff, chem tuto PLUS econs lecture.. phew.. sounds like a lot but i am lucky i completed them.. hahas..>< Well, JC life's going on pretty well with Woonyeow being possibly the main entertainer in school even though I used to think he didnt talked much initially, but as the weeks progressed, i realized he really can be a chatterbox when he wants to. lols..>< anywways, he's a nice friend and a rather helpful one at times. Even though he refuses to lend me money to buy my favourite brownies from POSH in school but he is still a nice friend. LOLS

Many days seemed to have passed, however, i realized living anew really isnt that easy as it seems.. My blog's URL is living anew but sometimes when i ask myself i really wonder whether i have already forgotten the past and lived anew.I hope I am.
Seriously.
Its hard to forget about the past as well as you. Walking through familiar grounds, seeing familiar things, I cant help but feel a pang of guilt for taking things for granted when the times were memorable. Eventually, when i listen to songs that remind me of the past, i guess its really hard to forget everything after all.
I always thought just sticking to someone else might help but i think i am just making everything worse at times.
It is unfair at times, you are living on with your life while i am struggling with mine. However, i still cant help but ask myself who was in the wrong. Or rather who made the mistake of saying things we didnt mean. We were childish and didnt really understand the meaning of promises to each other.
I cant help but ask myself whether have you ever thought of the past as well. Like the way i always do.
Sometimes, misunderstandings are good.
They make appear to be a person who lets go of stuff easily. I dont feel like standing out to clarify what others think of and say, because the misunderstandings make me feel better even though they may not be true.
"Its not important what others say about you"
Some friend told me.
I said" you look like a tk lei..lols"
he said" appearance is not important"

It seems very long since i heard such a thing where people do not deny other statements but instead tell them that they dont mind it.It sort of triggered my thinking even though i went on arguing with him. I guess this person acts like Clarisse in Fahrenheit 451? hahas.. Catalysts for my thoughts.
I guess appearance really doesnt matter that much in our case. It didnt help both of us..I realized another's thinking which is far more mature in the case. I guess.
But i think the past is not going to pass that soon.