i guess all defences cracked down yesterday..
I thought as long as i tried to avoid it, i wouldnt ever see you again in my entire life.
However, i was wrong. I wonder whether it was just a big joke played on me. But i realized it really wasnt..

When i first saw you from the top, i was thinking whether it might be you since the person looked almost exactly like you. I think you saw me too because you were looking at me with the look of recognition too.. For a moment, the defences i built from that period of time seemed to break down and shatter in just that moment..
Probably, it isnt that impactful on you because you seem to easily forget one and move on to another.. I am not like you.
I felt a little scared though..
I knew i didnt want to be like that or feel that way.. I thought time would eventually remove this painful scar.. Apparently time's not that effective after all..
it may sound like an exaggeration after all because what impact could there be from just meeting someone..
I looked away though.. I didnt want to keep looking at your expressionless face.
I knew it wasnt joy you felt upon seeing me, but you looked at me as though i was a stranger whom you knew many years ago. Sounds ironical. But i guess this is the most vivid description.
Just when i thought i could finally get a release from all this, I was wrong.

I thought for a while and realized perhaps I havent really forgotten about the past..