decided to blog again on this dreadfully hot Wednesday afternoon.
Work seems to be pilling up from all kinds of sources and i seriously wonder how others cn actually cope with it or are they just struggling like me behind that relaxed face. Interact's installation p[racticlly driving me insane as I am afraid of nittty gritty details tht will be missed out, especially anything regarding the invitations. Hais. what a drag though

Random thoughts i started to have while i ws trying very hard to fall asleep last night. Sometimes, we really do expect someone to help out, give a word of encouragemnt but in the end people are probably just waiting to see you fall off your chair. People from the "top" schools would probably never expect such a behaviour because they will probably fall of their chair once in many years unlike should i say commoners like us. Eventually, telling them of such problems therefore doesnt seem to help becuause you will probably just get a kind reply which lacks depth becaus the person has yet to experience it before.Eventually, you feel the whole world's crashing down on you because you cant seem to get anyone to understand how the shit you feel and all of a sudden you just feel like blaring out a string of vulgarities tht wwill probably scare the pants off your parents. I feel this way sometimes but do you? the person reading my blog?
well, well, we start to tell ourselves dont worry man its just stress. and you realize you really need to chill out with your friends and start to hope that you can rewind the times back to secondary school even where you could play all day long. Play volleyball at the back of the canteen after school, join numerous interhouse competitions, participate in your school's singing competition, go for numerous CCA rehearsals and yet still get the best out of everything. I used to think that way but i think everyone who thinks that way should wake up now. Or rather i should wake up too.
Yepps. the past's nice, memorable and can we ever reverse time by thinking that way, shouldn't our time be spent in a more productive way instead of reminiscing about the freaking past. Missing others seems nice, we try so hard to get ourselves to get
in touch with that familiar and relaxing times again but we fail to realize that nah. no one's going to stop for you. and time isnt going to go back.

this was like a realization i made while i was trying to drown out my grandma's annoying snore. But indeed, it seems logical to be thinking this way.

Phew. and when everyone starts to admire you, you start to have added stress. what if i dont perform as well as tht freaking guy in class? or what if i fall?
Lend a hand to yourself because thats the only thing thats going to happen i guess. :)

bb:)