Fate or Fated?

this few days keep on meeting weili, my old classmate from 4T1.. sounds so foreign now though 4T1.. hahas.. i realized time really does make people forget stuff or feel strange when meeting someone or even just saying something. Given the single analogy whereby a person who doesnt practise piano often will soon find piano and those white and black keys to be very foreign,strange and unfamiliar. I guess its easier to understand with the analogy.. hahas...
well, weili was telling me we have fate. lols.. i was like =.='. hahas.. fate. what a weird word. I used to believe that everything was fated. Everything that happened to me was fated and was for a reason. hahas.. i stopped being so childish. I realized it wasnt. I guess fate's really in your hands. Nobody can ever predict what's your next move. What's the next thing that would happen. so i stoppedd believing the fate bullshit thing.
recently feeling quite stressed. desperately wanna a break. desperately wanna just fly off for my holiday now and my headaches are making me seriously very frustrated how weak i can get. Sometimes, i just want a shoulder to lean on, a pair of ears to listen to me and a pair of reassuring eyes to tell me that everything's gonna be fine. Everything will just come and go. However stress i may feel, eventually it will go away. I hope it is true.
been long since i went out to have fun. hahas.. i wake up everyday to homework. I just think school's at least not that depressing. i have that share of stress but that at the same time i feel so much more at ease with friends to talk to, to joke with and at least i dont have to keep burying myself in a pile of homework, worried I might never be doing enough to upgrade myself from the recent promos.
I wanna go to a beach. wanna talk to people. wanna try to live for once my own life.