I guess its time I clarified things up.
I think I kind of mixed up stuff and thought it was a form of liking. I guess I am mistaken because right now i seriously dont feel any form of liking anymore. I just wanna things to remain the same they were during the time of orientation and dont really wanna to be plagued by such lame stuff. just like my blog's url. it means living anew. I guess you should try to stop harping on such stuff again and again. I finally felt it was time to tell you I mixed up. It wasnt liking we are just friends. always. and there's no point waiting because the real person I am waiting for is not you.
Making decisions whether or not it would turn out right was just a normal decision me as a friend would advise you to take as it was a better alternative than spending your time in the school for more years than others would expect to be. As a friend, I would feel sad for that loss of companionship and thats all. I am tired of ai mei stuff which not only gets on my nerves but also makes me feel childish why i am indulging in such lame stuff. I regret the wrong feeling I protrayed but that seems to be the end of the ai mei stuff and i suddenly realized how eager i am to get into the pharmacy faculty. I just sort of thought the whole thing would get crazy if you didnt realized that at this point of time already i dont feel the same and I just want to for the first time take full charge of my life and studies, achieving the grades i should have and not be contented with the self-satisfactory ones now.
Friends. studies. I guess i wont give up neither just like a person i know of did but I will rather the status remain quo.
I hope this settle things because maturity no matter how you say always remains a barrier between the communication we have. childish words may be forgiven. But childish, insensitive and stupid words and actions sometimes just cant become part of my life. We are still though the friends that we were a year ago.