Making an effort to find out is always the first step to new acceptance in life..
sometimes, we experience things that cannot be understood and there stands an opportunity of finding out why and the other choice of standing by and waiting for things to happen..
thats been something I keep telling myself for the past few days..
does that mean the person doesnt care alot if the person never plans to find out?
well, i just have to presume so.
been feeling quite down this few days when i am alone, feel as though I am not that important to do things that i am supposed to do but somehow i just dont feel like telling anyone about it..
waking up, starting up, going home, doing homework, is just back to the normal routine whereby i feel so fed up with life alongside with other people making me feel worse. disappointment, anguish and sadness somehow just fills me up this days..
I couldnt say i felt nothing but I still feel anger and bu ping over things that shouldnt be done as a friend. I guess I am the sensitive one because i bother alot about this kind of things.
Feel like making everything go back the way it was.
But I wont, because its unfair to other people and I wonder when will you ever for once try to gain something back that's lost. I guess I will probably wait for a long while because it was probably never cherished in the first place.
emoish post. and i am feeling emoish though.
forget it.
off to homework again.